August 27, 2008
I don’t know when I’ll feel okay to update here. I keep starting and stopping entries, because I don’t want to jinx myself.
It seems like every time I talk about how I’m back on track (!) or I’m running again (!), without fail, the very next day, something happens and I poop out and just regain any weight I’ve lost.
After The Jelly was born, I lost 41 of the 63 pounds that I’d gained while pregnant with her. Then I gained back 8 then lost 8 then gained by 10 then lost 8 then gained back 15 and lost 12 and… baaaaah. This past time, I’d gained back 22 and have now lost 11 of those. So, I have 11 more pounds to lose until I’m back to the lowest I was after Jelly-Jells was born. After that, I still have 20 to go until I’m back to pre-pregnancy weight.
And then 40 to go until I get back to the low I’d hit in 2006, before plateauing and starting to re-gain.
And maybe this is what throws me off track, when I’m doing well. Thinking about the fact that I have quite a bit of a ways to go just to get back to where I was 2 years ago. Then I get to finish losing the weight I’d originally set out to lose.
I can’t afford to get thrown off track, this time, though. In so many ways, I’m so ready to keep moving forward.
And I have been moving forward in such a great way, I’m too pumped up to be thrown off track right now, anyway.
The Girlie has been back in school for three weeks now and we have walked to school every day, but one, when we were running late. So, three weeks back in school, means I’m currently on Week 3, Day 2 of the running program. Again, it started out as C25K, but this week needed to change over to the Spark You Way program because of timing issues and what my Garmin will and won’t do with workout intervals.
Bottom line is that I’m mostly through Week 3 and my pace is steadily improving.
I’ve been really wishy washy on my training and races I want to do and such, and I think I finally came to the realization that I just need to kind of chill out. There is a half-marathon in October that I was originally wanting to run, but the more and more I put off training, the more impossible it became for me to train up for it, obviously.
I’ve talked to MB and another woman about running it as a relay, but I’m not sure how that’s going to work out. I’m pretty committed to making it happen; but MB is having trouble getting workouts in (having three kids, one of them being less than a year old, will do that to you), and the other lady I just haven’t talked to about it much. So, I’m not sure if that’s going to happen.
There are a couple of runs coming up in September and October, which I’m considering doing, just for kicks and of course, I’ll be done with this training program by the time Thanksgiving rolls around. I just need to decide if I’m going to do the huge Run to Feed the Hungry, or if I’m just going to stay local and do the Folsom Turkey Trot. Local sounds really good, right now, but we’ll see.
I think what’s making things easier is just keeping it flexible. The Jelly has also been helping by being SUPER cooperative about being in the stroller in the mornings. 75 percent of the time, she just falls asleep when I’m running.
Of course, yesterday, the first day I try to go walking with a woman I met via The Girlie’s class at school, we only got to do about a mile before The Jelly proclaimed herself done with the stroller business. I guess a mile is better than nothing, on an off day, yes?
And now, The Jelly has proclaimed herself done with amusing herself while I’m writing this, so I guess that’s that. That would be another reason I haven’t updated. While this is more rewarding than my old job, it was definitely much easier to go into an office.
More later.